"Fix"ation

So, I had a visit with the orthopod about my hip.

Based on my xrays and symptomotology, I've received a tentative diagnosis of FAI: Femoroacetabular Impingement, which sounds a lot more complicated than it actually is. In my specific case, it looks as if some of the cartilage may be chewed up. This mastication appears to be caused by a femur (thigh) head/ball that is too big and continuously rubs/depletes/tears the cartilage in the sacroiliac (hip) joint.

Ha -- I've got big balls!

Anyway, I have to have a hip MRI/arthrogram next week to try to confirm the diagnosis. When the hospital called to schedule the test, they told me that I'd need to have someone drive me home afterward because the arthrogram is typically so painful that people are unable to drive themselves home. You know, though, this is my thinking: I am not a pain wimp. I am well acquainted with menstrual cramps, ovarian cysts, migraines, and RA: my tolerance for pain is pretty damn high. Plus I have big balls. Will I really need someone to drive me home after the procedure?

The interesting thing in the midst of all of this is that there is no evidence of arthritis in my hip. Yay. If left untreated, however, FAI usually develops into OA of the hip. Boo.

So what's the treatment for FAI?

Surgery.

So I find myself sitting here and thinking, "Please, God, let me have FAI.... Please, let it be FAI." Why? Because it's fixable. And so much of what I suffer from with RA is not "fixable."

How ironic is it that I'm sitting here wanting to have surgery -- having a fixation on what's fixable? On one level, it's undoubtedly warped. But on another level, I'm guessing that other people who suffer from chronic illnesses might think my "fix"ation is perfectly normal....

Comments

[WarmSocks]

Something that's fixable sounds awesome (in a weird sort of way). I completely understand.

[Kim H]

Well, everything should be revealed by July 7th. I'm kinda hoping I'll be doing the "woo hoo" dance.... In the mean time, I'm keeping my fingers crossed!

[Sarah Schaale]

Love, love the blog lady :) Such good reads!

[Amanda]

No, I totally understand wanting to have surgery and get it over with all at once vs having RA in that joint and having to deal with it forever. I would probably think the same thing. And big balls...how fun! :)